Making sense of life

I was just looking Roy's Facebook page and seeing glimpses of some moments Roy had when he was still here on earth. I was looking at the photos of Roy when he was young, the family time that he had, the trip to Taiwan with his friends.. I can imagine all the fun, laughter and enjoyable moments he must have had. It suddenly felt surreal to me again that he is no longer here with us. 

I am thinking right now that we are all people trying to make sense of life. Why am I here on earth? What is the meaning of life? I think everyone, at one point of their life, must have asked questions relating to life's meaning. I remember when I was young, probably in secondary school, I had a thought: What if I wasn't born? It was a weird thought, a weird feeling. I imagine not being born would probably be like when I am sleeping, being unconscious, being nothing. Sure, I would miss out on the fun, but maybe it wasn't all so fun anyways. On the other hand, I would also be able to evade the pains of life. I wouldn't have to go through ANYTHING, that isn't too bad right?

In that thought lies a deeper problem. I wasn't so sure of why I even existed. A part of me wished I wasn't even born. I was already a Christian, but maybe I wasn't so convicted of my own belief. Perhaps I wasn't so satisfied with life. Or maybe it was problems in my life that were starting to surface that caused me to have that thought. In that thought that went through my small mind revealed my need to make sense of my life. I admit, I can't speak for everybody. But tell me if I am wrong. Tell me if you do not feel the need to make sense of your life.      

How do people usually make sense of their life? I think that many people actually avoid making complete sense of their life. It sounds weird, because if there is a need to make sense of life, wouldn't one try to fulfill that need? But maybe that need is just too hard to fulfill, that people settle for less. We all try to fill our lives with activities, people, achievements, stability. By working towards these things, it gives us some sort of meaning to our lives. "My purpose of life is to bring happiness to the people around me." "I want to just live life to the fullest." "I want to get a good job and live a stable life" "I want to help the underprivileged, the poor, the suffering, and make the world a better place." As a Christian, I believe most of these things are not really bad in itself. God created relational people who are meant to have relationships. God gave us the intelligence and resources to create activities that we can take pleasure in. (I love to play table tennis ^^) It is good to help those in need and the Bible encourages us to do so as well. The Bible, however, does speak against seeking some achievements like wealth and power. 

BUT do these things really allow us to make sense of our lives? One big question that bugs me is in regards to our origin. If it wasn't God who created us, then where do we all come from? How did it all started? If one is an evolutionist, then he has to ask himself, where did the first bacteria come from? Wait, how did the earth even come to form in the first place? How can SOMETHING come out of NOTHING? That doesn't sound very right. Science is working on it, but still unable to establish a reasonable explanation. Then again, maybe the question of our origin doesn't bug you at all.

Now, I am much more convicted of what I believe in. Last year, after I entered into university, some questions that I had about Christianity at the deepest part of my mind surfaced again. I asked, and I got some answers, but more questions arose and I asked again. Through these, I gained a deeper understanding of Christianity and I found myself stronger in my faith. I realized that Christianity answers the important questions of life and helps me to make sense of it all.

So, how do you make sense of your life? 

Nice song~

Loving can hurt~ Loving can heal~

Love the dynamics of this song! <3

Love and the Freedom of Choice

Is love, love without the freedom of choice? Could God have created us in a way where we would love Him without the choice to do so? No. Love wouldn't be love if there is no freedom of choice. We would all be like robots if we were programmed to 'love' Him, and that is not love. That is at most obedience or compliance. If God created us to have a relationship with Him, then, the freedom of choice must be embedded in His creation so that we can truly love Him.

The choice we have is this: To believe in God, the creator of the heavens and the earth, who loves us so much, or, to not believe in God, and to live our lives as if God does not exist. 

"Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God" (John 1:12) I thank God for this undeserving privilege to become His child.

My dearest friend Roy

Dear Roy,

You passed away too suddenly and all of us are so saddened and shocked by the news. I still remember the day where we ran 10km and the days that we trained for it together. I remember how you loved running and no one would have thought that fitness or health was an issue for you. I remember celebrating your birthday recently and our conversations that day. We were talking about inspirational stories of how people succeeded life. And yet you did not have the chance to create these stories for yourself..

Roy, you were always the caring, gentle, genuine, humble and peace loving person that I know. I am glad to have had you as a friend, You will be dearly missed.

Hope found in Jesus Christ

There is this hope that I found in Jesus Christ. I know that this is not all there is to life. Is our purpose and meaning of life simply just created out of our own wants and desires. Is study, work, friendship and family all there is to life? Who or what gave me this breath that I breathe and this heart that beats? Am I just a formation of atoms and matter or is there an intelligent mind behind it all?

I found this hope in Jesus Christ, a promise of eternity with the One who created me. As marvelous as this world we are in may seem, a greater place awaits us. For your word says "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal." What is life on earth as compared as to in heaven where we spend eternity with you? But you called me to live this life for your glory's sake and so will I do my best while clinging on to you and your word.

I have found this hope in Jesus Christ, where I can no longer be separated from God. It is written, "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."

As much as we would like to think that we are good, the truth is we have all sinned against God. No one can claim to be righteous before God. But the good news is this. When we trust God’s grace to save us through the work of Jesus, our sins are forgiven, we get a purpose for living, and we’re promised a future home in Heaven. And this is the beauty of it, we are saved by grace through faith. This is a gift of God and not something that we can work for, so that no one can boast.

“Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.”

If the above prayer reflects the desire of your heart, do say it out, meaning the words that you say. After which, you will begin this amazing journey of a relationship with the Almighty God!

A new phase of life

My first official lesson in NUS will start this coming week on Tuesday. I'm not really too excited about this as there is just so many uncertainties about what is going to happen. Firstly, I'm rather afraid that I may not be interested in what I am learning. I feel that loving what you do is going to be an important factor in doing well in it. I mean, I have never done accounts before, not in secondary school, not in Junior College. Of course, I will be taking some other modules related to businesses, organisations, economics, which I am also unsure if I am really passionate or even interested about learning them. Secondly, the business school culture can be quite competitive and vocal. Also, social skills is highly emphasized as we may have to rely on one another for notes and information. This culture is pretty different from all the schools that I have been to and I am unsure if I will enjoy myself in a culture like this. Thirdly, university's style of education as a whole is pretty much different from secondary school or Junior College. You have to bid for modules, read your emails..etc. Well, at the very least I get a slight idea of how university will be like now, as compared to previously when I knew it was different but did not know how it was different. 

Nonetheless, I will embrace the choice that I made two years ago and I know that I am where I am for a reason. I also know that regardless what happens, of whatever difficulties that I may face, I have a God who is greater than all problems. I have a God who wants to be involved in my life and who wants to listen to the good and bad that I am going through. I have a God who is ever so faithful to me despite my weaknesses. :)))  

Lord, you are worthy.

What a week. In a time period as short as a week, I have experienced and seen how God can work wonders in my life and in the life of others. I have experienced God's overwhelming and overflowing love, the joyfulness of having God by my side, as well as the identity and unity in Jesus Christ. I have seen the transformation of the heart, not only in my life, but also in the life of others. I have also seen how God cares for every individual and has such an intricate plan for each and every one of us and how He can work in such marvelous ways to fulfill His plan. I am so amazed by God. May my lips never stop singing His praises and may my heart never stop worshipping Him, for O' Lord, you are so worthy of our praise and worship. Thank you Lord.